Sunday, November 15, 2009

Boredom

ALIENATION
I suddenly feel out of my depths in which I used to be engrossed earlier. I have come out of my addictive habits of reading books so right now no particular thoughts occupies my mind. A certain listlessness occupies the mind. Trying to fill it up with lists of things to look forward to or perform gives it a certain structure and form. Even time I am Trying to structure time and see how it goes.

I realise we cannot live without structure. We need a laptop and gadgets that provide us the framework and mode of expressing the structure. Everything is a structure which will ultimately have to collapse. Our body is one such structure which will collapse like the 9/11 Towers in front of our eyes at the time of death. It is we who lend the foundation to this structure without us they cant stand on their own. All our lives we are building such structures and living within those walls or frameworks. Finallly all has to go but the question is why do we form these structures endlessly as in why do we get reborn. They say life is not about self proving but self expression but that doesn’t keep us quiet and happy we go and stress ourselves out in seeking that expression. Its not all beauty and glory it involves so much sweat and blood and tears.

BOREDOM ABSTRACT

To different people boredom means different things. Boredom is about time structuring. Most people structure their time to avoid or face their boredom. The person sitting in a store was facing it stoically by minding the traffic ahead of his shop, off and on and diverts his mind to other things like the profit loss statement, ordering a few helpers around. He was waiting for the truck that is to arrive at his store.

BOREDOM DOG & WATCHMAN

The dog was lying soundly on the cement block. It was panting slowly but deeply showing that it only had its eyes closed but was not yet asleep. After a while it woke up and walked upto what I guess was it was its usual haunts and returned back methodically to the same place where it was initially resting obviously bored. It crouched itself again trying to bend its knee and rest its chin on the surface what seemed to me rather uncomfortably. I had an inclination to make it sleep more relaxed but didn’t know how to venture into such an act.

Watchmen generally have boredom surrounding them with really nothing to do but stare at the vacant space ahead of them with an occasional visitor passing by. Most of the time the watchman would go unnoticed by the visitors adding to his boredom. The watchman would have to muster enough energy and enthusiasm each time a known visitor walked in and expected to exchange a smile or some pleasantry. Probably over a period of time(Ovapot) they get over this habit and stop summoning that kind of enthusiasm and be prepared for any kind of backlash that may engender. One often wonders that Ovapot they would develop some low blood pressure due to energy being unutilized. Its not difficult to imagine someone going into a coma sitting for a whole day like that. I am very interested in handling such levels of boredom and whether a person can come out of it unscathed or without getting de-energised. Strictly there should be a way out but the person needs to be intelligent to figure out that method. Probably it would involve a little bit of creativity on his part to evolve a variation of his various modes of action/response and time it with the hour of day to match and harmonise with the body clock cycle in a day.